Ok, so post number one. I've decided to enbarq on a journey to better myself, my health, my life and the world around me. Most of my life has been one huge chaotic mess, but I've learned a lot, grown a lot, and have become a better, stronger person because of it. I somehow managed to find an amazing man who's not only my best friend but he's my rock, my soulmate. He's the kind of person who gives selflessly, loves unconditionally, and will do anything to protect those he loves. He's a United States Army Veteran and he loves God, his mom, and he works hard for what he has and will stand up for what he believes in. He's my hero!
Little did I know that he'd become the light in my dark world. He's given me hope and the desire to be a better person.
The point of this blog is to not only share life's up's and down's but to also document my journey as I lose weight with the help of Bariatric Surgery.
How did I get to this point? Well I don't know why exactly but I began gaining weight when I was around ten years old and have battled gaining and losing most my life. 6 years ago I was in an accident that took away a lot of my mobility as time went on and with that came more weight. Frustrated I began working out in the water 6 days a week and changing what I ate. It was working for a while, but Instead of losing like I had been I began gaining again, despite working out 2 hours a day, 6 days a week. I had been put on medication for depression and a mood disorder and discovered that this was the cause of my weight gain and it became almost impossible to lose while still taking the medications, but I needed to. I began reasearching Other options to help me lose weight because I needed to lose weight desperately! Not just 20-30 pounds, I needed to lose about 200 pounds! The extra weight was causing more severe pain from my back injury and has made life difficult to say the least. After about 4 years of research and talking to people who had been through the Weight lose surgery process, It became clear that at my present state this may be the only thing that will help me in every aspect of my health. Three days after getting married in May of 2009, I decided to go to a Seminar to learn about the Dr and to get more information about surgery. Scary as it was, I took the leap of faith and started the process. I've just been approved by my insurance company for surgery and it's all becoming real. Living a life as a fat person, I can't remember what it's like to be a healthy weight. It's always a scary thing to not know what the future holds, but at present my future isn't going to be good unless I do something about it, get some help and make this positive change. It's not the easy way out, It's not going to be easy at all, but it is a tool that will help me do what I've tried so hard to do time and time again. January 2010 I will be having surgery and I will begin my journey to lose what's taken so much from my life. I'm excited and scared, but I and those around me deserve a better, healthier me.
